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Thursday, June 16, 2011
I hate it. I'm not good at good-byes. They're getting harder and harder. Shouldn't something be easier, the more you do it? I had to say good-bye to all my friends and family when I left Ontario to move to Alberta. It seems as though I have been saying good-bye ever since. I said good-bye to Medicine Hat when I moved to Sault Ste Marie, and then again to the Soo when I moved to Calgary. Said good-bye to a few in Calgary when I moved to Three Hills. and since living here, have had to say good-bye to many friends who have left. I hate it! It breaks my heart every time. Sure there's skype, and fb, and twitter, and letters and phone calls; but................... the face to face, and hugs, and shared laughter are just not there, and it hurts. The pain is less with time but I still ache a little when I think about it. I wonder if it will ever go away?
I must admit though; I find myself pulling away from the people who have left or are leaving. Not intentionally but.....It must be some sort of defense mechanism. I know I shouldn't; and when I become aware, I try to get back to where I was before. Not always easy, but I try! anyway.......that's what's on my mind tonight. Wishing I was stronger, better equipped at handling the tough good byes! How do YOU cope? Or is it hard for you to say good bye? Some people are just better at it than others, I guess.