Thursday, October 21, 2010

I wonder why it's so hard for some people to do things that scare them even though they know it's the right thing, or the best thing to do? Why is it that fear keeps us from LIVING instead of just being. I am trying to break that cycle for myself and hopefully will be an inspiration for others.(specifically my children) Really life is too short. Go after your dreams. Live your best life. Don't settle. Be all you can be. ( I think that was an army ad lol) How often have we heard that? Dying people saying they wish they would have................or if only they had.................(fill in the blank). It's everywhere. Books, movies, news stories. Yet we ignore it. That was fine for them but I could never...........Why not? I have been thinking about this quite seriously for a long time. I kept asking myself "what are the things that make me happy?" I mean truly happy. One of the things I had thought of was singing. I like to sing in groups. All the voices together is so magical. I FEEL it. I love it. The last time I sang with a group was when Daryl Wilson was working on his album and asked for some people to sing with him. I did not know Daryl at the time or his wife and kids....but now they are a big part of my life. I was invited by another friend and so we went.The whole family actually. Hopefully if I did this right you are listening to his music right now. I so enjoyed that experience that I was sorry when it was over. But I ignored the feeling. 4 years later I am still searching for things to make me happy. Make me feel alive. I joined a choir. YAY! I'm excited and nervous and scared all rolled into one. I don't know what I'm getting into and I could regret it ,(I doubt it) but I'm following the little voice in my head that says  "why not?" "life is short." "go for it!" "if not now; then when?" I admire the people who seem to live their lives like that. Sometimes we judge them and think they are crazy or irresponsible. What if WE are the ones that are crazy and irresponsible because we are not listening to our true inner selves and following the path that we know is right, but SCARES us. Now I'm not suggesting that we all quit our jobs and tour around the country following our favorite band ,but, why not start small?  Find the thing that makes your heart swell and do it! You OWE it to yourself. They say that once you hit 40, that life really begins. You feel more comfortable in your own skin. I thought it was a bunch of junk just to try and make it sound glamorous when really.....you're just getting old. LOL I believe it now.Maybe it was all the hype that got me thinking in the first place but....whatever! I am to the point where I'm realizing that I am only here for a short time so I had better make the most of it.

I think when we are kids, we have a great attitude and believe we can do anything, BE anything. Somewhere along the line that gets squashed with circumstances, responsibilities and crap! By the time you reach 40, you start wondering where all those dreams went that you had? Why you stopped doing things that made you happy? Maybe we have to go through all that to appreciate it later? I don't have all the answers but I DO know that I am going to start living my life the way I should have been, all along. I hope you start today too!

7 comments:

  1. Yep, we can hear Daryl sing and I agree with what you are saying here!!!
    I love in the photo it looks like Blake is part of your family and Adam and Dani have totally bailed on all of us:) It really was a fun day!!! MISS YOU!

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  2. Great post, you are so inspiring!

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  3. Thanks for this! You guys honestly made my day - and then some, coming out to sing on this project. I'm happy that our lives intersected then, and glad to be neighbors now. Great post.

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  4. Hey, a picture of me made it to your blog. I feel honoured. Keep posting. I'm enjoying.

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  5. Once i figure out how to get the song on here that we all participated in...I will.It's the 'Friends' song but the version on here is JUST Daryl!

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  6. ok that didn't sound right. the version on here is not the version that is on the cd. lol

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  7. HA HA...or get the the Three Little Birds....
    JUST Daryl...for shame...hee hee...
    He can pull it off;)

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