Sunday, November 21, 2010

Just as I thought!

All my motivation is slowly going down the tubes. I'm doubting myself left right and center and I can't help but feel I'm going a little backwards. I know it's all in my head but; truly, my mind IS a powerful thing. I wrote a poem to read at the Christmas concert next weekend. Now I hate it. I said I would try out for Guys and Dolls, but now I am so nervous I'm afraid I'm going to chicken out.And then on top of it all.....all this doubt and stress is making me eat more. ARGH! I just can't win. I can't tell you how many times I have said "today is the day"!I'm getting VERY good at lying to myself.

8 comments:

  1. What happened? WHAT HAPPENED! But I will say, good to know it's not just me. Maybe its contagious. Keep going! I have to so we can stick it out together.

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  2. you know....things aren't happening fast enough and then i start doubting. I'm still in for the audition so.....we'll see. Working on a new something to read at the concert.

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  3. don't live to regret things you never tried. Go for the audition. You will see - it will all work out in the end. You know you can do it. If you don't do it for yourself - do it for the kids.

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  4. no..No...NO!!! You are my inspiration Erin! I am trying to learn from your bravery!! I tend to only do the safe things - but your guts challenge me to try a little more...so keep that super hero cape on young lady - write a new poem, or just read mary had a little lamb...you can do it!!!! Hey if I can play in the handbell choir YOU can do that poem!!!

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  5. Thanks for the inspiration people. Wavering doubts are not going to keep me from my goals or trying new things.i find it's good to voice my doubts though. It's out there. Now i can't be 'sick' on the day of the auditions because everyone already knows my concerns. I'm actually feeling a lot better about it today. Great to hear all the feedback though!!! xo love you guys!

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  6. Ya, what Sheila said:) You have to audition for guys and dolls...I already have tickets to the show;)

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  7. you do NOT have tickets to the show! they are not even for sale yet. I AM still auditioning. Just nervous. I practiced my audition song in the car today on the way home and everyone loved it except Adam who yelled at me to stop! KIDS! sheesh! LOL

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  8. ha ha ha...I have tickets if I say I do..

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