So as I walked today(and jogged a little) I thought about certain things that I do and don't do because of my childhood. I just recently finished the book Glass Castle by Jeannette Walls and it really resonated with me. I won't go into too many details about the book just yet. I belong to a book club and it's our current selection and I know some have not read it yet.If you have NOT read this book...you should. stop reading this blog right now and go get the book. It's that good. It really got me to thinking about how I was raised and how it made me into the person I am today.For example.....My mom used to always make macaroni and hamburger and tomatoes. Huge pots of it that would last for days. I guess because it was cheap and nourishing. I still love it to this day and when I make it;I make a HUGE pot that will last for days. BUT we also had "Klick" and fried bologna a lot and if I never eat Klik again it will be too soon. I find this goes for many people. Some things they enjoyed as kids,they hate as adults and some things they enjoyed as kids, they still like.I find this is the same with behaviors as in food.When I walked to school in minus 30 degree weather in my snowsuit,bundled up so tightly that only my eyes were sticking out...friends and their parents would pass me in their cars and not stop to pick me up. If I know the child on the way to school I ALWAYS stop and ask if they want a ride!
There were very few places we lived when I was a child that had showers. As a result I always took baths and had to rinse my long hair under the faucet of the tub or get that hose thingy to rinse my hair. I have thick hair so whether it was short or long.....it took a while to rinse. To this day I rinse and rinse and rinse and rinse even though I have a shower with good pressure. I never think it's all the way out.
We didn't have a lot of money growing up so we didn't always have a lot to eat. Now I eat too much. my pantry and fridge are always full. And I mean really full. I don't know if I subconsciously think that it will all end and I will end up with no food? so I'm storing it? but that's just the way it is.
Because we didn't have a lot of money(there's that sentence again) I spent most of my time at friends' houses and went to relatives places for events and holidays.As a result: I love to entertain. I like having everyone over to MY house. That goes for the kids as well. I would rather have them here.
The list goes on. Some things I have held onto because they were part of my childhood and some things I have let go of, in spite of the fact that they were a part of my childhood. My mom did the best she could and some of those things she did for me and taught me; I continue to do for my own kids. But some of the things I do the exact opposite. You can only do what you feel is right. I know my kids will grow up someday and take some of the things we taught them to heart and carry that on with their own children. BUT some of those things will never enter into their parenting repertoire. That's okay with me. I don't need my children to copy me but to learn from me. I don't want to ever judge them and say "that's not how I raised you!" In the end it all really doesn't matter. Everyone is different and two people can take away two very different views from the same situation. This is evident even in siblings. I just want them to be happy and healthy and for that I am doing the best I know how. I'm not sweating the small stuff any more!