I am a strong woman. I know this to be true. I have been through a lot and I'm still here. This past year has been full of firsts for me, full of new adventures, new challenges and new friends. Finally fitting in with someone in this small cliquey town was a real surprise and joy. Then....They moved away. Not to worry. There are more friends on the horizon, waiting to take their place in your life. In they go. Stealing your heart and becoming a wonderful part of your day to day. Oh wait. It's time for them to go too. It's not good bye. They will be back. Of this I'm not so sure. Hurt, I tried to remain outside the circles. Me being me, this did not last long. In came a couple more. Friendships were budding and we were becoming close. BAM! Off goes another. Seriously??? I'm not handling this very well. One more to hit the road soon. Friendship, kind words, words of wisdom, shared laughs. I'm enjoying them to the fullest. I've come to realize the inevitability of the next departure. I'll appreciate what I have. I've become closer with other people and they will help me with the transition when the next one leaves.
Oh guess what??? The transition team is leaving too!!! I'm not sure what the lesson is here that I am supposed to learn. I'm not sure why all this pain is necessary. Really I would like to catch my breath before the wind gets knocked out again. It's like contractions coming so close that you have no time in between to recover. I'm so tired. I'm so grouchy this morning. I know if I let myself.............I would be a huddled mess on the floor. I refuse! I've let out a few tears and felt like I'm gonna explode. Hold it together. I've vowed to let no one new into my life. I know this won't last long but I really need to recuperate. I am only human. My heart is only flesh. It needs time to heal.
......................................and life goes on!