Sunday, October 16, 2011

I stepped into my shoes today

I had a bit of an epiphany today. I've been struggling for a few months now (probably longer) about my thoughts and feelings, decisions and lack thereof. My choices and even my thought patterns. Today I stepped into my shoes! You know how people say "don't judge someone until you've walked a mile in their shoes!"? Well today I stepped into my own shoes. I've come to the realization that I'm ok with whatever decisions I make. I'm ok with my thoughts, my desires, my ambitions and dreams ~ because they are my own. I've been in this body for 41 years and have made a lot of mistakes; but, I'm still here. I feel confident that I'm ok to accept responsibility for all of it. I have to be. There's always going to be someone who doesn't approve of what you've done and where you're going. I'm not going to do that to myself. I've walked more than a mile in my shoes and I know what I'm doing. And if I don't....well that's MY problem. Not anyone elses. I'm not crazy. I'm not evil. I'm not a bad person. I can find you many people who will attest to this. (some may disagree....they are NOT part of the survey! ;) lol)

I follow my head and my heart. I make good decisions and I make mistakes. I live with it all. I'm not going to be afraid anymore of my feelings or emotions. They're there for a reason. I'm going to listen and do the best I can. That's all anyone can ask of me and that is all I ask of myself. Sounds like common sense but; it's actually taken me a long time to learn it. To actually KNOW it! Today ~ I know it! I'm feeling confident. There's still a little healthy fear; but my  inner strength is winning. It tells me I can do anything and I'll be ok. I'm sure the doubt will creep in once in a while. I'll pay attention but I won't lose my way. Today I stepped into my own shoes ............................and I liked it. A lot!

5 comments:

  1. Yes! What an inspiring post - we would all profit from the same exercise: completely accepting and encouraging ourselves :)

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  2. There ya go...that's the REAL Erin that I know and love. by the way... NICE shoes! Love you!!

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  4. amen to that baby! and those little doubts and fears are just whispers from god.

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  5. ...listen to the whispers for they will guide you further. (obviously from my numerous posts i'm having issues with google again - sorry)

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